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Gooning is one of those things that is very hard to explain to someone who hasn't experienced it, but when it happens you know exactly what it is. It is that state where you've been edging for so long that your brain sort of switches off — the rational, thinking part goes quiet, and all that's left is pure arousal. You stop being self-conscious. You stop thinking about anything outside of the sensation. Everything just dissolves into this fog of need.

I first properly gooned in chastity. I wasn't allowed to orgasm, but I was allowed to watch certain content for a limited time each day. After a week of denial, even just that small window of stimulation was overwhelming. I remember just staring at the screen in a total haze, making sounds I didn't even fully register I was making, completely gone. My domme thought it was very funny and also very hot, which is about right.

The interesting thing about gooning is that it is sort of the male equivalent of multiple orgasms — not in terms of physical sensation, but in terms of the sustained, continuous arousal state. Normal sexual arousal builds toward orgasm and then drops off completely. Gooning exists in a different gear, where the arousal plateaus at an extremely high level and just stays there. It feels like floating in it.

It works best with extended edging — bringing yourself very close to orgasm, backing off, waiting, then doing it again multiple times over a long session. By the third or fourth edge, something in the brain shifts. You stop being a person trying to have an experience and start being just a body in a state. I find that chastity makes this happen faster because denial accumulates over days, so by the time stimulation is permitted the arousal is already at an elevated baseline.

I think gooning also has a slight dissociative quality that appeals to me specifically because of my femboy identity. When I'm in that state, any self-consciousness about my body or how I'm being perceived just completely disappears. I'm just sensation. That's a pretty specific kind of relief and I understand why it becomes habit-forming for some people — though like anything, knowing when to stop is part of doing it well.

Being edged by someone who is good at it is a very different experience from edging yourself. The lack of control is the whole point. When you edge yourself you always know at least roughly how close you are and you can always choose to tip over the edge if you want to, even if you've decided you won't. When someone else is doing it, you have none of that. They read your body and make the decisions. The psychological effect of that is enormous.

I have been edged for extended sessions where my domme would keep me right on the edge for what felt like forever. At a certain point the desperation is just total. You're begging not because you're performing — you genuinely cannot think about anything else. I have never found it useful to describe how this feels to someone who hasn't experienced it because the vocabulary doesn't really exist. The closest I can get is: it feels like the most important thing in the world is happening and you have no say in how it resolves.

There is also an interesting effect on my headspace from extended edging. I get very submissive and very soft. Something about being held in that state by someone else strips away whatever social armour I normally carry. By the time a long edging session is over, whether or not I've been permitted to orgasm, I feel both completely wrung out and genuinely peaceful. Like something has been released even if the physical orgasm hasn't happened yet.

My preference is for edging to be combined with restraint — not necessarily elaborate bondage, but just not being able to move away or reach down. The helplessness combines with the arousal in a way that goes very deep. I have had some of the most intense experiences of subspace from edging sessions, deeper than from impact play which is usually what people assume is the most intense thing I do. The sustained psychological element of edging does something impact play doesn't quite reach.

If you haven't been properly edged by someone who knows what they're doing, it is worth putting it on your list. Make sure they know your signals well enough to read how close you actually are rather than guessing, and make sure you have a way to communicate when you're genuinely at the limit. Everything else is just riding it.

Prostate milking is one of those things that sounds clinical when you describe it but feels anything but clinical when it's happening. For anyone unfamiliar: milking is prostate stimulation that produces a fluid release — seminal fluid released without the muscular contractions of orgasm. You can be milked without any penile stimulation at all, often without even being hard, and the release is slow and continuous rather than the sudden rush of an orgasm. It doesn't produce the same neurochemical drop as a full orgasm either, which is why it's used in long-term denial dynamics to manage prostate health without giving the sub a genuine release.

I found milking by accident during a long pegging session. My domme was using a specific angle and I started leaking continuously without really feeling the build-up of orgasm at all. It was disorienting in the best way — the sensation of release without the mental experience of orgasm feels very strange, and very submissive, and I became instantly obsessed with it.

The psychological dimension of being milked while in chastity or during denial is hard to overstate. The physical release with no mental relief — the desperation remains completely intact — is one of the most perfectly crafted tools for extended submission. I have been milked during sessions where my domme spent a significant amount of time just working my prostate without any other stimulation, and the combination of helplessness, continuous leaking, and zero path to actual orgasm produced a headspace I can't really get any other way.

Practically speaking: prostate milking is easier with extended anal training since you need to be relaxed enough to allow sustained internal stimulation comfortably. The position matters a lot — on all fours or with hips elevated tends to allow better access. Communication about pressure and angle is important because the prostate can take sustained stimulation well but sharp or jabbing pressure is uncomfortable. Done well, it is one of the most intimate things you can do with a submissive.

I have worn chastity for individual scenes many times, but my first week-long lockup was a completely different experience. When chastity is a prop in a scene it is exciting and a little intense but it doesn't fundamentally change anything. When it is ongoing — when you wake up in it and go to sleep in it and are in it on the subway and at work and when you notice an attractive person and feel the cage and remember — something different happens to your brain.

By day three I was noticeably more attentive. Not performed attentiveness, genuine attentiveness. Every conversation I had with my domme felt more focused. I was thinking about her more frequently throughout the day. I sent more messages. I was more motivated to do small acts of service — not because she asked, just because the accumulated desire had to go somewhere and it turned into care. This is the thing that surprised me most: how much the locked-up arousal redirected into actual feeling rather than just frustration.

The physical adjustment took a few days. Sleeping in a cage is weird the first two nights. Morning erections are uncomfortable in a way that becomes slightly comical rather than miserable once you realise it passes quickly. The hygiene routine — warm water through the cage in the shower, careful drying — becomes automatic fast. The mental adjustment takes longer. Somewhere around day four or five there is a shift from "I can't" to "I'm not" — it moves from feeling like a restriction to feeling like a choice I'm continuously making, which is a very different psychological experience and a much more deeply submissive one.

When I was released at the end of the week, the orgasm was not actually the most meaningful part of it — the return to my domme's presence after seven days of accumulated attention and desire was. That surprised me. I expected relief to be the whole experience. It was actually a small part of it.

A sissygasm — a hands-free prostate orgasm from pegging — is not something I expected to be able to achieve. I had read about it and filed it under "probably exaggerated." I have a sensitive prostate, I enjoy pegging a lot, but the idea that I could just orgasm from it with no direct stimulation seemed like something that happened to a specific type of person in specific circumstances and probably wasn't going to happen to me.

The first time it happened I was well into a long pegging session. I had been in a specific position for a while — hips elevated, thighs held, getting spanked intermittently, completely in subspace — and I felt the orgasm building from somewhere I wasn't expecting, internally rather than the usual external sensation. It was slow and spread out and by the time I realised what was happening it was too late to do anything except go with it. It was the strongest orgasm I'd had to that point, and it didn't feel like anything I'd experienced before — less sharp and more complete, like something had been reached all the way to the centre rather than just on the surface.

I couldn't stand up for about twenty minutes afterward. My domme found this delightful. I found it somewhat disorienting in the way that genuinely new experiences are disorienting when they don't fit any existing category you have. The recovery time was also longer than a normal orgasm — not unpleasantly so, but distinctly different.

Since then I've had sissygasms in a significant proportion of longer pegging sessions, but not all of them, and I haven't been able to identify all the conditions that make it happen reliably. What I know helps: being genuinely deep in subspace before it starts, having been denied for at least a day or two, the right position and angle, and a domme who knows my prostate well enough to apply sustained and consistent stimulation to the right spot. All of those things together create the conditions. When they're all present, it tends to happen naturally. When any of them is missing, it doesn't. Which is, honestly, part of what makes it special.

Ballbusting is an interesting kink because it looks very scary, but at the same time, many guys are super into it. I am into ballbusting too, but I feel I am into it for a different reason.

Many are into it because they love the pain, but for me, it is more of a mental game. I don't see myself as a guy, and I have always disliked having male genitals. Therefore, I love ballbusting because it is like a reminder of how I should be punished as an AMAB person. Also, it is humiliating; being kicked, stepped on, and punched there is degrading, and I love it.

Interestingly, I can take a good amount of ballbusting, but I wouldn't say I have a high pain tolerance. The reason is that I don't even think "pain tolerance" exists. For example, I can take a lot of spanking, but I can't even handle light whipping. I have seen many people who can take a massive amount of spanking, but in real life, they can't even deal with a regular tooth cleaning at the dentist.

It is just that I get excited by spanking and ballbusting; the excitement masks the pain, and I enjoy it instead of just "tolerating" it. Because of the mental excitement from ballbusting, I normally can withstand a lot of kicking.

I think I like squeezing and stepping the most. The former makes me feel the most vulnerable, while the latter is just very visually sexy to me. I love being stepped on. Kicking is fun too, but a lot of the time I get kicked in the wrong spot.

But ballbusting can also be combined with CBT, and I LOVE sounding. Sounding is very fun; it is quite sensual and not painful. I have done that many times, so sounding to me is pretty easy. It looks very scary, and I love it.

I can actually cum from ballbusting — that's how much I love it. I have had multiple sessions where I got kicked and stepped on over and over again until I just came from it. It feels more like a ruined orgasm, though.

So, ballbusting is just super fun. Even though it can be dangerous, if you do it the right way and don't twist the balls (most injuries come from twisting the balls in CBT), you are mostly going to be fine. Ballbusting doesn't always have to involve extreme kicks; to me, the most enjoyable sessions are always right around my limits. Sometimes ballbusting can be sensual, too, as I love constant, nonstop light kicks. Ballbusting is just very fun overall.

Aftercare to me is a must, and I cannot end a scene without it. I had that experience before: during the middle of a scene, my domme got a phone call. It was an emergency, and she had to get going right away. She was nice and gave me a hug and untied me, but I was still very confused as I was well in my subspace; it gave me the worst subdrop ever. Luckily, she texted me in the evening and made me feel better, but after that, I decided aftercare is a must for me.

That's also the reason that I don't really do pickup play at parties. As a sub, I feel scared just being spanked or kicked randomly. The music is loud, and many times, aftercare is difficult to have.

But aftercare is the time that I enjoy the most. I love to have some time to unwind and just cuddle and chat. We can talk about the scene, what I can improve, and also get to know each other as a person. To me, a connection is always important, as I would rather try new things with a regular partner than keep getting new partners.

I am pretty needy during aftercare. I need a cuddle, a lot of chat, and a pat on the head. I also need reassurance and some water. Some snacks or candy are nice, too. But yeah, overall I am a pretty high-maintenance baby during aftercare, which is the complete opposite of how I act during the scene. During a pegging scene, you can spank and pound me hard, but during aftercare, that would be another story, hahaha.

I feel this is a topic that is very important, but people in the kink community never really talk about it. I am not referring to daily routine skincare, but skincare after any intense kink scene.

Kink is fun, but it can also be dangerous; sometimes extreme impact play can lead to permanent damage. I have seen people do so much whipping that even after their wounds healed, they had heavy discoloration and some body parts were forever darker.

Same with spanking: some people just don't take any care of their butt afterward. That might be okay a few times, but if it is always like that, the skin can get loose and it can cause darker colors. Plus, it might lead to infection, too.

To me, after a heavy spanking, I normally would not wear clothing right away. I would get some ice or aloe gel on it to make myself feel better first. It actually feels great when my warm and red butt gets some aloe gel. Then, after that, I would prevent myself from sitting for too long for the next few days, and I would put aloe gel on every day after my shower.

That stands true after whipping, too, especially if you get hurt on your nipples. Skincare is important there as well.

Bruises also need care. I have had some pretty bad bruises from heavy ballbusting scenes in the past, and I wouldn't go for another scene while there are still bruises. That is the number one reason for permanent darker skin color.

Hydration is important, especially during winter. My butt always gets super dry after a heavy spanking. Skincare is just as important as precaution. Aloe helps a lot, hydration is a plus, and keeping blood circulation going is important too. Whenever there is a wound or a bruise that is healing, try not to do another impact play scene on those areas.

Since I was growing up, I have always been confused about my gender. I felt I never really fit into society and honestly felt out of place.

But when I am crossdressing, not only do I get excited, but I also enjoy myself. I still remember that one afternoon when I was finally by myself and started crossdressing from the beginning. I started by putting on my cute pink panties, then my lacy bra, my black Chinese dress, and my thigh-highs with my long black boots. Then, I put on my collar to remind myself how submissive I am and started putting on makeup in front of the mirror.

I began with foundation, moved to eyeliner, and finished with lipstick. Finally, I looked at myself in the mirror. This is the true me. This is the true me that was always hidden underneath, and I really like seeing myself as my true self.

It was in that specific moment that I found my inner peace. I felt like I was finally being myself and no longer needed to hide. I was just sitting there doing nothing, but it was very peaceful; I felt I was no longer confused and finally knew who I am. I still remember that afternoon and that beautiful inner peace.

There are many things that other girls love to wear; some of the most popular answers would probably be nails, high heels, or panties. But for me, it is always thigh-highs. I love wearing thigh-highs a lot, and whenever I wear them, I feel very feminine.

Part of the reason is that I have quite feminine, skinny thighs, and I enjoy the soft touch of the fabric. Additionally, because I am short and petite (5'4"), wearing thigh-highs makes me feel somewhat tall.

The main reason, however, is that thigh-highs make my legs look longer and softer, and I just love wearing them. Whenever I have them on, I feel incredibly feminine, and I love seeing myself in the mirror.

Don't get me wrong — I also love my full transformation, from wearing high heels and boots to my nails and cutesy dresses. Wearing all of those things makes me feel feminine, but thigh-highs will always be my favorite.

Since I was growing up, I have always felt myself leaning more toward the feminine side. I was never into "boys' interests" and always felt more comfortable hanging out with girls. During my school years, most of the guys saw me as one of the girls too, since I was always in their groups.

I always envied how girls have more variety to wear, while guys are usually stuck with very typical clothes that cannot be changed much. I also loved the feeling of lace and silk while I was growing up, and pink has always been my favorite color.

However, I never really thought about it too much because, back in Asia, crossdressing is a big taboo. After I moved to the US, I was busy catching up in school and trying to fit into society. I was in a phase where I didn't feel like a guy, but I was also just confused.

Everything changed when I met my first Domme. She is a very dominant lady who is also into feminization. We met via FetLife, and she noticed my feminine face and body. The first time we met, she put me in some cute Lolita dresses. I still remember that day; when I looked at myself in the mirror in those dresses, I felt I had finally found the missing piece of my life.

Since then, I have explored more with makeup, thigh-highs, boots, heels, and nails, and I have fallen in love with all of it. Today, I have an entire wardrobe of clothes and a large collection of makeup. It has become a crucial part of who I am.

Pegging is very fun, but it is also very scary to many guys. Pegging certainly needs more preparation, but it is definitely worth it!

Pegging can be both mentally and physically rewarding. To me, pegging is like a whole role reversal, and I honestly enjoy it a lot mentally. It can put me in subspace very quickly, and I love to dress up completely for the pegging; I rarely get pegged naked. I feel very safe but also vulnerable when my thighs are being held and I am getting spanked while being pegged.

It is also a physical turn-on for me because my prostate is very sensitive. In a prolonged pegging session, I can achieve a hands-free sissygasm from it. It is such a strong, explosive orgasm that a regular orgasm cannot compete. I can barely stand after a sissygasm.

But it certainly takes some time to build up to it. First of all, I was very tight to begin with, and I had to wear a butt plug for about two weeks in order to get myself opened up. Even today, if I don't wear a butt plug for a while, I have a hard time being pegged.

My routine for pegging is that I start my preparation at least a few days before. For at least two days ahead, I start wearing a butt plug in the morning for an hour. Then, on the day of the pegging, I have a pretty light meal, use a water bulb to clean, and wear a butt plug for 30 minutes about an hour before the scene starts. Then, I am all ready to enjoy the pegging scene.

If you are just starting out, you might also sniff "rush," which can loosen your ass a bit, and don't forget to use tons of lube! Go slow, and don't be afraid to tell your domme or partner that you are inexperienced. Not only will they be extra careful with you, but trust me — they love to take your virginity too!

It is pretty common to wear chastity as a gurl, but it actually is not an easy thing to do. First of all, you have to find the right one in order to wear it for a long time.

I suggest buying either silicone or metal materials; don't go cheap and buy those plastic ones. The cheap one can be pretty sharp on the edges and also not suitable to wear for a long time. Second, one really has to measure it correctly. The best way to measure is to use a measuring tape when it is soft.

Chastity can be very fun; holding it and being denied is very erotic to me. Also, it just makes one even more horny in the long run, and they can't wait for the next play. It is also a big part of the crossdressing journey too.

Meanwhile, big chastity can look very weird during crossdressing because there would be a bulge in the genital area. I would suggest either getting a small chastity cage or using tape to basically hide the bulge. I personally prefer the tape because it is just much easier.

But I have also tried a chastity cage that is like two cages connected with a tube. That's perfect to put two sissies together, and whoever gets hard would be touching the other's dick. It is so much fun!

I'm open to a lot of different kinks, including some "extreme" ones that other people might find scary. Things like sounding, flogging, and roleplay — pet play, prey/predator dynamics — I'm generally open-minded about exploring those.

But there's one kink I just can't really get into: trampling.

I understand why people find it sexy. For me, the only part I actually like is the angle and the view — when I'm looking up from the bottom and seeing the person standing over me. That part can be hot. But the actual trampling itself isn't enjoyable for me.

The main reason is my body type. I'm on the smaller side and I don't have a lot of "padding," so when someone puts their weight on me, I really feel it. It's hard for me to handle physically, and it becomes uncomfortable fast. The pain from trampling isn't the kind of pain that feels pleasurable to me.

Barefoot trampling is already difficult for me to endure. And if it's in high heels, it's even worse. At that point it doesn't feel like a kink — it feels like getting stepped on, and I'm not into that sharp, "stabby" kind of pain.

Foot fetish is a pretty common kink in the kink community, especially among male submissives. And I think a big part of why it's so common isn't only the feet themselves — it's the power-exchange dynamic that often comes with it.

A lot of foot fetish scenes naturally put the submissive in a submissive position. Usually you're on your knees, lower than the other person, and looking up from the bottom. That positioning alone can feel inherently submissive, even before anything happens.

That said, I don't think the fetish itself is inherently submissive. I genuinely believe there's no sex act that is automatically "submissive" just because of what it is. Things like worshipping feet, giving massages, licking, or being under someone's feet don't have to be power exchange. They become power exchange depending on how they're done — who's in control, what the setup is, and what the positions, rules, and roles are.

So foot fetish itself isn't automatically part of power exchange. But the way people usually do it — and the positions involved — often make the power dynamic feel more obvious. That's why it's so common in dom/sub settings.